Posted by coral on October 29, 2000, at 10:08:33
In reply to Man, am I glad that I'm here, posted by dari on October 29, 2000, at 8:16:32
> > >Dari - I remember a book title written by a soviet spy called "I led two lives." I feel that way all the time. You think about other people "if they only knew." I heard someone else refer to it as the imposter syndrome. It's pretty exhausting to always feel like you have to be something that you aren't. ksvt
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> > ksvt: that is it in a nutshell, "the imposter syndrome", that is so cool, and yup, it's exhausting. I came very close to going to the hospital last night. I took a nap yesterday after my awful panic attack and woke up still feeling terrible. My son was home and instead of scaring him with the prospect of his mother potentially going back to the "fruit farm", I let him pick dinner and we made it together and actually had a pretty nice night considering the precariousness of the previous couple of hours. Fresh linquini, homemade pesto from our garden this summer and cape cod scallops with roasted red peppers. I've certainly never had a problem with my appetite when I'm depressed.
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> Thank you so much for understanding. From a purely selfish perspective, I'm glad we are all here for each other. But, obviously, wouldn't it be wonderful if there was just no need for this board?
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> peace and prayers,
> dari
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