Posted by fleeting flutterby on February 24, 2010, at 11:49:49
In reply to Re: therapy or going it alone, posted by deerock on February 24, 2010, at 10:44:22
> hi there, interesting list.
> so you are saying that you get angry with your therapist because you feel that you need them?
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> do you stick with them and do you end up feeling like you are autonomous or dependent on them?---flutterby: was almost out the door and thought I'd check here real quick......
Yea, my inner-self says things like "I hate you"(in regards to the therapist) and tries to find things that comply with that frame of mind. I don't ask her how SHE is when she asks me as that just feels too "close". I get uncomfortable when she gets teary eyed when I talk about the abuse and neglect I experienced as a child-- a part of me wants to hate her for that. I dont allow myself to "depend" on her-- but I fearfully don't feel as autonomous as I used to either.... kind of scary!I'm on my 4th T. ! but the first one wasn't my doing-- she moved 2000 miles away after I'd only been meeting with her for 4 months.(no, i didn't scare her away! ;o) .....) But the other two after that-- I quit. This one now I'm with, I've been with for 2 years, I'm ever batteling the part that wants to flee. She's soooo patient- lucky for me. A part of me hates that she knows so much about me, hates that she seems to care.... but I'm trudging on..... I'm learning to appreciate it and that maybe..... maybe I can learn somethings here. (god, I hope so, I'm so tired of not having a single friend!)
there is a couple by the name of Weinhold-- I think it is, anyway, they work with counter-dependant people and wrote a book. They say, and this rings true to my personal experience, that when an adult is like this-- as a child(from infant to 3) they were denied the attachment and nurturing that is so required at that age.
got to run,
later,
flutterby
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