Posted by fleeting flutterby on November 21, 2008, at 10:56:01
In reply to killer empathy..., posted by B2chica on November 21, 2008, at 8:32:39
> i'm struggling alot today.<<
(flutterby said): ----I'm sorry you are struggling so much at the moment.
>> i saw T yesterday and the session itself was good. Except that we talked about a mutual aquaintance who's wife killed herself a few years ago. i never knew the details and my t brought it up. (mostly because i share similar philosopies as her)
> we were talking about my suicidality and how i view it sometimes.
> the woman we talked about choose a method that is stuck in my brain and i can't now get it out.<<(flutterby):------ your post jumped out at me, as it will be a year next week that my 30 year old neighbor committed suicide. and her method gets stuck in my brain also. The husband has moved away now with their three year old little boy-- but still.... I struggle to get the whole thing out of my mind....
> i don't want to tell T that cuz i don't want her to feel she needs to tiptoe around my depressive issues..i NEED her to be able to talk to me like this.<<(flutterby):----Why do you need her to talk to you like this? If something such as a huge tragedy like this is triggering,(as it could be for even the healthiest person on the planet) wouldn't it be just as helpful to NOT talk about it? ..... I'm just wondering....(you don't have to answer this if you're not comfortable doing so.. it's just me wondering....)
> But it's one of those things like when you see a car accident happen in front of you, it sort of haunts your mind for a few days.
> well, thats' whats happening for me now.
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> i'm not only getting visuals of the method, but i can't help but think...that could be me. i feel all this horrible sorrow inside my heart as if i've done this act myself.
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> and i never even knew his wife.
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> i just really needed to talk about this with someone.<<
(flutterby):----thank you for sharing. I hope you post more on this whenver you feel you need to. *hearts* to you.flutterby-mandy
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