Posted by Partlycloudy on November 16, 2008, at 12:45:37
This morning my husband asked me when I was going to get around to putting more items on our store's website, and I completely broke down. I'm not up to to simplest of tasks. I can barely get through the days. I just this morning started at my very low end therapeutic dose of Zoloft, and I feel shell shocked. Appropriately. I time my Xanax doses exactly so that my last one is taken right when I crawl into bed so I have a chance at getting to sleep - so far that is working, along with the Ambien CR. Haven't really seen much improvement with the headaches. Yoga IS helping my back, but even there I'm crying, which embarrasses me.
But I'm just hanging on by the barest of threads. I'm scared stiff by the economic outlook - I don't have a job to try to hold on to, my my mind is racing, how on earth could I get one if I needed to? I'm such a mess.
Husband finally saw me drop my brave front - crying in front of him, which I rarely do. He brought me kleenex and said that we were devoting this day to the sofa. Bless his heart.
I'm scared of just about everything right now. Having a bad day. Think I might go back to bed.
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