Posted by seldomseen on November 12, 2008, at 19:17:30
I was only about five minutes early, but when I went to open the door it was locked. I was a little shocked.
I tried it again and yep still locked.
I got very confused and felt like a little girl. I was like "now what do I do?"
I stepped to the side to check my voicemail to see if left me a message - nope.
Then I saw him walk by and unlock the door.
I really can not describe the terror that I felt at that door being locked. It's never been locked.
Me processing that pretty much took up the whole session. I cried for most of it actually, even though I felt really stupid. I thought he has gone away.
Keep in mind that I've been with this man for years and he has never just not shown up for an appointment. In fact, he is very good about letting me know when he needs to cancel, even when there is an acute crisis on his part - he still calls.
There was no reason for me to react the way I did, but I did.
Sometimes I wish he would just abandon me and get it over with.
Seldom.
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