Posted by LadyBug on July 15, 2008, at 13:29:09
In reply to Re: I got a letter from my T! ;-( » LadyBug, posted by Dinah on July 14, 2008, at 22:53:18
I've wondered if she is hurt as well. I think I know her enough to know she is to some degree. I told her in my letter that she hurt me even though she might not have meant too, she did.
I want to believe she still cares about me. The only way to find out is to go see her otherwise I can only guess for the rest of my life. It's too strong of a connection to ignore. I can't do it. I had an amazing dream about her last night. She had set up an appointment to see me and I was to meet her near her office at a certain time. When I saw her she gave me a hug and then proceeded to take me towards her office. She brought her husband with her but he had dropped her off and left her to see me. We were trying to get to her office and we kept running into different snags. The elevator was broken, her office was in a different place and I couldn't find it. Anyway, I never did get to sit in her office and have a talk, we kept getting interrupted. I remember her hugging me and holding on to my hand like she really cared about me. I woke up before I had finished the dream. I realized just how important she is to me. Why is this happening to me? I can't believe it.
I did write her a pretty amazing letter last night, now I need to see how I feel about actually sending it. I feel like I haven't got anything to lose at this point. The damage has been done.
Ladybug
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