Posted by Dory on December 14, 2007, at 8:31:09
In reply to Re: Umm, stuff that I'm ashamed of., posted by TF on December 13, 2007, at 11:40:13
Hi Tf.. fixed belief.. i like the term, and i think some of my own "baggage" could fall into that definition... even though T & pdoc like to use terms like schemas, fear of this or that (blah blah blah).
have you gone to a doctor that specializes in these things? i recall you asking others like pdoc and dentist.. i mean, there must be some sort of doc who is more specialized. From what you say i think you'd have trouble if he/she said you did not have an odor problem. It doesn't sound like you'd believe them maybe? But maybe it would give you some evidence one way or the other.
i just posted a question on another type of forum as well.. and it's the same in some ways. Do i trust the feeling i have trusted for so long, or trust what someone else is telling me is "reality?" It's a tough place to be in. i don't have an answer to that or i'd be the first to give it to you. My only suggestion is to talk/write it out.. explore the thought process and see what you find out. But.. and this is a big but.. it will only help you if you are open to the possibility that maybe it is a fixed belief and that maybe you are reading this into what you see.. just the possibility.
it doesn't mean you're crazy, but i wont tell you you're not. Like you said, how would i know from a couple of posts? (you don't sound crazy though)
personally.. i think people dislike something about me.. and i admire your courage in saying it.. i don't have that.. not that brave.
i'll give you a couple of things to think about...
when and how did this idea start?
what would it mean to you if someone said "yes you smell?"You said a few people had? was i reading wrong? What did it feel like when they confirmed your thought? Did it ease the fear? It sounds like it did not.. like the *fear* of getting that rejection rxn is more solid.. i mean, if it's true, then you wouldn't have to be afraid that you do, you'd know it. But you seem hooked on the doubt that makes you afraid.. waiver back and forth.
i am afraid like i said.. i have "evidence" it's not true, but i feel like i see "signs" around me that suggest it is true.. so which do i go with? It's like there couldn't be enough evidence in the world to answer it for me (just me). Even when i feel it is confirmed, i go back to worrying about the next scenario. See what i mean?
just thoughts.. take or toss.
poster:Dory
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