Posted by RealMe on October 4, 2007, at 22:35:31
In reply to RE: Feeling so horrible; maybe T not good » RealMe, posted by twinleaf on October 4, 2007, at 7:12:17
I really don't know what is wrong with me lately. I know I have been under a lot of stress at work, but I seem to be unraveling. I had written my T that perhaps I should just go away as I was afraid I was going to drive him away and that I don't think I would want to see anyone. I sort of suggested I want to just disappear, that I don't want him to get rid of me, but I can't bear to have him say to go find someone else like my last T. He wrote me back this morning and said, "I will see you tomorrow." I think he is afraid to write most anything anymore as I seem to start to read all sorts of things into his reponses. I hope tomorrow morning he doesn't say to me that I need to find someone else. I am really afraid of that, and I think if he has that in mind he certainly would not give a clue of it in an email. I feel so pathetic now, and I don't want to be like this. I have to get my sh*t together as right now I have been put in the position of doing the work of two people. A third psychologist is just worthless right now and of no help. I can see that this weekend I will be spending the whole weekend again doing nothing but reports. That's it as far as I am concerned. No more; I really can't take it right now.
RealMe
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