Posted by B2chica on August 15, 2007, at 12:22:59
In reply to Re: unstable..**trigger**, posted by DAisym on August 15, 2007, at 12:04:58
thnx daisy.
my T actually has "down came..." but she advised me not to read it yet.and i just had a bunch of ...ick...come
i know what the trigger was...as least that's a good start.
just this morning...i just...did too much. too much memory....too much remembering over old pictures. you can just see when the abuse started. my looks are all so solemn. ...and, ....i think i had a new memory... i thought i was done with all the surprises...
and to top it off i was scheduled to see T today but i had to cancel earlier this week cuz i was sick and thought i would still be, i felt horrible about maybe getting her sick...anyway, my anxiety over this is a whole other thread i have all these scenario's played out and provoke my anxiety even more.
and i just can't call T. i feel like i, well, like im just not worth the time and i'm an inconvienence and she's looking for an 'out'. well, if she calls to reschedule than i will but...i let her 'out' if she wants.
thank you for what you said about little one.
i am feeling still unravelled but not like i want to hurt myself anymore.
...it was just such a Strong feeling, and i hadn't felt that since before i was preg.
i wasn't prepared for it.
b2c.
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thread:776399
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