Posted by shrinking violet on January 15, 2007, at 18:53:59
....of my former T.
I know our relationship wasn't normal, and I know that's as much her fault as it was mine, if not more.
The "relationship" (if it can be called that) with my current T is better. Normal. No personal feeling, no fear, no hesitation or defensiveness. I trust her judgment, and I don't care enough about what she thinks of me to withhold things from her. I like her enough to talk to her, but I don't wonder about her personally, I don't care where she lives, I don't want to hug her, I have no thoughts about her at all. I know this is normal, and it's better. But of course it makes what I had with my former T all the more confusing.
I want to write a letter to my former T, telling her everything. How confused she made me, how I hurt because of her. It'll be a long letter though (to put it mildly) and frankly I'm not sure I can write it. No, I know I can, I just....I just don't know if opening up all of that emotion again would be worth it.
Would I be able to truly let her go then?
If not, then how?I just don't know....
-SV
poster:shrinking violet
thread:722646
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