Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on January 10, 2007, at 21:45:22
In reply to Re: I have to tell a secret/Wishingstar, posted by MidnightBlue on January 4, 2007, at 22:32:26
Wishingstar,
you did not CAUSE your depression.(happy belated b-day, by the way)
I also "caused" my depression. When my mind is overwhelmed. Anxiety, etc I dont' take care of it. I just let it pile up, or ignore it. Sometimes I actually FEEL depression coming, and I invite it.
Depression gives me a good excuse to put other stuff on hold. allows me to wallow. makes the inside feel all rotten and comfortable.
The hard work is to figure out why being in so much pain is preferable to engaging in LIFE?
Keep up your hard work. Chemicals are not an excuse for behavior. I have also experienced depression as a result of birthcontrol. BUT, I've also experienced it when NOT on bc. Have you? Besides, why would you react so strongly to bc? You had a really severe depression. Plus, let's not forget that you were suffering a lot in your personal relationship with T's during this period. That wasn't caused or determined my the level of estradiol in your blood!
but, take note of this for the future. Now that you know that you are predisposed to depression, you will have to be extra vigilant about avoiding depressive sideeffects.
gonna go bed now.
-Ll
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