Posted by MidnightBlue on January 4, 2007, at 16:18:05
In reply to Re: Elaine, How are you? » MidnightBlue, posted by ElaineM on January 3, 2007, at 23:15:14
Elaine,
I'm not "well" either. I think most of us identify with that. Right now I have a fairly high level of physical pain. And I just go day to day. I have to. No big plans for the future, just trying to make it through one more day.
There are times I haven't felt safe on PBabble. There are several boards I either don't read, don't post on, or read and post on only when I'm feeling strong. Even then I try to be careful what I say. Sometimes, I think that is a loss for PBabble because I do have something important to say I just don't feel like I can say it.
That said, there are always PEOPLE on PBabble I have felt safe with. I'm hoping you have found some of those people. You can aways Babble mail when you are afraid.
I have never read anything that you have written that is inappropriate. You are a very eloquent writer. Don't be afraid of who you are. You don't contaminate me.
You are thought of, prayed for, worried about even when I don't post to you. It is MY choice to reach out to you. If I feel myself being triggered or upset I will pull back. Sometimes when I don't post it is just because I am dealing with a lot myself it has nothing to do with you or anyone else.
Take care,
Midnightblue
> I'm not well, but I'm going through day after day.
> I'll say a little more tomorrow - maybe. It's hard to talk. I've gone through a h*ll of alot the last month, and it feels like I've been underwater the whole time. It honestly feels like 31 days happened in the blink of an eye - today was a big day. I don't always feel safe here anymore. Anywhere really. But today was pretty horrible, (and night is always worse) so I thought I'd post. But I also haven't been very lucid lately. I'm just really really struggling. And everything is piling up - it's not "just" T. I feel me reaching my shut-down point.
>
> But thanks for asking of me. It makes me feel present. And thought of.
> (((MB)))
> blove, EL
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