Posted by ElaineM on January 4, 2007, at 14:53:05
In reply to ((((((((((((((((((((((((EL)))))))))))))))))))))))), posted by muffled on January 3, 2007, at 23:32:12
Muff, Thanks for being a friend. You always ask about others, and it's nice of you :)
I don't like sharing burden - I can't stand the idea of hurting another. And I'm sure that's what I do. But also, it's really scary to share stuff. And embarassing -- Who else would be such a fr*ggin loser to get in the same situations as me, and not be able to do more. No one. It makes me feel like the only person in the world. All the stuff I've written before had been humiliating -- confusingly, liberating at the time, humiliating now. Probably just casue I end up repeating new versions of the same sh*t over and over and over. And months have disappeared and I'm in the same place -- psychologically, emotionally and even health-wise :( I hate that a new year has begun - another end is so far away. Okay, I'm rambling now. Gotta stop.I always look forward to hearing from you, so thanks again.
Hugs back.
blove EL
poster:ElaineM
thread:718609
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