Posted by ElaineM on January 4, 2007, at 14:37:02
In reply to Re: Elaine, How are you? » ElaineM, posted by MidnightBlue on January 4, 2007, at 10:48:04
Hi MB: I meant on the board -- but only cause people are on the board [to sound completely ridiculous]. But I also meant outside around others. My startle effect is so hypersensitive. A horn. Someone speaking too loudly. Quick movement. Anything. I haven't had a problem being able to tolerate others for a long time. And then it was more to do with the anorexia. THis doesn't have to do with my T. But I'm not gonna talk about it. It's not appropriate. And I don't want to think about it when it's forgotten. Plus there'd be no point sharing. I've been taking care of myself. I just can't talk about it. But I didn't mean "not safe with myself" - as in SI. I've been good with that lately. If someone else would do it for me, that'd be a different story. But for now, I don't even have an urge to inflict more myself.
Alot of hard things going on with T - as usual. But I think everyone's sick of hearing the T stuff - especially when I don't leave. I don't want to alienate myself, so I don't post instead. WHich sounds really dumb when I type it out -- cause I'm doing it to myself then -- but that's me.
thanks for listening
blove EL
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