Posted by James K on August 22, 2006, at 13:53:41
In reply to Re: One more post » James K, posted by llrrrpp on August 22, 2006, at 8:55:25
^Plenty of conflict in my family, and ll felt she would absorb it, and make it go away. But actually, just ended up hating myself and withdrawing even more from the conflicts.
~~~Yeah, that is what I was struggling to understand when I was writing. I've always avoided family dynamics study, because if you get too far in, it starts to seem like astrology or something. I was always mediating between my little sister and big sister. I was fiercly protective of my little sister. As the male, I could physically end a physical fight, but not emotional pain. Throw in Parents and a black sheep, and who nows.
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> these thoughts about causing it and doing it on purpose etc... well, that leaves no room for the free will of other people, or the chaos that is intrinsic to our universe. It's an illusion, and this illusion can be very damaging to your psyche. Can you talk with a T about this?
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~~~Very interesting. Whenever I get questionnaire type psych testing they ask about magical thinking or if I believe I can do things others can't do. I always said no. I've come to realize that I believe I have the power to hurt people deeply, cause them to fight by saying the one thing they can't let go.The difference between recognizing a skill, and believing in a "power" is where psychological problems creep in. I need therapy real bad. (smile)
> thanks for posting. this is really interesting stuff. I'm sorry you're feeling so low, but can I say thank you for helping me understand a tiny piece of myself for the first time?
~~~Same here. You helped me understand my own idea.james
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