Posted by llrrrpp on August 22, 2006, at 8:55:25
In reply to One more post, posted by James K on August 21, 2006, at 1:37:26
> I wonder if That drawing of negativity on myself against my hatred of conflict reflects a Middle child kind of thing. And a hastening of the inevitable.
> If I caused it and did it on purpose, I set the terms and can predict the outcome and am in total control of whatever happens.
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> I'll give it a rest now.
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> James kI'm really interested by this middle child thing. I've never heard that before, but it really makes sense to me (a middle child). Plenty of conflict in my family, and ll felt she would absorb it, and make it go away. But actually, just ended up hating myself and withdrawing even more from the conflicts.
these thoughts about causing it and doing it on purpose etc... well, that leaves no room for the free will of other people, or the chaos that is intrinsic to our universe. It's an illusion, and this illusion can be very damaging to your psyche. Can you talk with a T about this?
thanks for posting. this is really interesting stuff. I'm sorry you're feeling so low, but can I say thank you for helping me understand a tiny piece of myself for the first time?
-ll
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