Posted by happyflower on November 27, 2005, at 12:54:48
In reply to Re: just forget I ever said anything » LipGloss, posted by Voce on November 27, 2005, at 2:00:48
Yes, I have feelings for my T and I believe he has feelings for me also. It is very clear to see them, I am not delusional, I am not just wishful thinking either. I am a very realistic person, and don't live in a fantasy world. Some of you who have listened to my story since March, knows most of the story. I appreciate all the fun and support this site has given me. But now it is time to move on.
We all know about the bad client therapist relationships that have happened, but I am sure we don't know as much about the positive ones either. If this kind of thing didn't happen, there wouldn't be rules about it. This isn't anything new.
I believe we were meant to be together, whether friends or something more. We do share a special bond, it is very evident. These feelings are not just one sided. You all have read my posts about what has been said and done since this January. But what you don't know is what you can't see. A women knows when a man is in love with them, they can't hide it.As far as his marriage and mine, it isn't my job to respect his marriage, it is his job. It is his descision on what to do about that. I have to decided about my marriage too.
I am not just a love sick teenager, I am a grown women in my late 30's who has been married for over 12 years now, and have two kids. I know what real love is, I have had it in my life.I didn't enter therapy because I was totally screwed up person, I have lived a very normal adult life. I think this is key, because he can't do real damage to me, if I was okay to begin with. I don't think he would be attracted to me if I wasn't somewhat level headed and was totally screwed up.
If my relationship continues, I will respect the rules of them, to protect me and him. Yes, I could get hurt, but you can get hurt by anyone in any relationship.
But I just can't let this chance of real happiness to pass me by because client and therapist relationships are taboo. I need to follow my heart, I will be okay, even if my heart gets broken. I didn't believe in soul mates , until now that I feel it. If you can't wish me well, then I don't need your judgmental views. I am following my heart.
I dearly love a lot of people here who have been so wonderful, and I will miss you. If you want to keep in touch, please babble mail me, and I will give you my email address. Thank you for all your support, support is so important, I am glad there is this site for that. Please try to be happy for me, because I am the happiest I have ever been. I have truely found that special person who could make my happiness even better.
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