Posted by pinkeye on May 25, 2005, at 13:31:43
So, in following with Tamar's idea, is anyone here willing to pretend like they are my ex T and help me get closure and move on?
I wrote him an email recently - telling him how I hadn't told him all that happened with my dad, how I had always been messed up emotionall from childhood. How I was always emotionally tortured and hurt and scared, and confused and contradicted with all the various issues.
I asked him if I should try to dig further or try to just move on.
I told him about babble and my chatting here and being taken care of by so many babblers.
I told him the india plans - to return after 2 -3 months to india for a couple of years.
I told him things with my hsuband has been better and he is fairly nice and pleasant, but sometimes he is physically violent with me.
I told him I found it hard to terminate with him so abruptly and not being able to contact. I asked him if he would allow me to write 2 - 3 times more and if he would atleast write me a one liner once or twice more to help me move on. I told him I try to manage but found it incredibly hard to just stop contacting and move on. I told him I understood all the feeligs I had towards him was all transference - that is probably why I ended up asking him again and again if he liked me, even though I knew he was indifferent and I was just a patient. I told him I had projected all these stuff on to him.
I told him I should perhaps never write again to him.. and I wasn't even sure if he is going to read my mail or if the email address is still even valid.
That is pretty much what I wrote. Is anyone willing to pretend like my ex T and help me get closure and move on?? He is probably never going to write again.
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