Posted by mair on April 9, 2005, at 18:29:46
In reply to i don't belong....(careful, possible *t*), posted by shrinking violet on April 9, 2005, at 12:49:05
(((((sv)))))
I went back over the last couple of months of posts to get a better sense of how this has been building up. I feel so badly for you - I think you wanted to end your time with this T in a good way and everything has gone wrong and you just haven't been able to fix it. And from the sounds of it, your T is just as frustrated as you are, because she probably wanted things to end in a nice way too. I'm sure she feels very inadequate; unfortunately it sounds as if she's given up which is her failing not yours.
I don't think any of us knows what our purpose is; we're just here and as imperfect as we are, we try to make some use of the time we have. Everyone belongs because our differences are so great. We go through periods, as you are now, when we feel less intune with our surroundings and less comfortable in our own skins but this is not how it's always been for you and it is not how it will always be. You have to try to hold onto that reality.
And of course the reality that PB would be so diminished by your absence.
mair
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