Posted by Lorelai on October 1, 2002, at 16:51:25
Please, is there anyone else out there who has a similar experience? I have an alter ego who steps in and handles problems for me. She's done so for years and since for me, she's been a lifesaver, I've never told anyone about her before. Just figured it was okay since I was aware of her and she's only been a positive in my life. I don't consider myself to have multiple personalities because of my awareness of Alice. I mean, aren't multiples unaware of their different personalities? This only got confusing for me when I told other people. Before then, I was fine with it. Anyway, I finally mentioned my alter, half-jokingly, to my fiance, who insisted I tell my pdoc (I'm in therapy for my erratic behaviors and have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder). So I'm just starting to open up to my pdoc and tell her about my alter (my alter's been with me since age 17--I'm 43). To make a long story short, the pdoc told me I'm "very good at disassociating," have been through a lot of trauma and since she's inexperienced with this type of thing, she's referred me to another pdoc--*sigh*. I feel very alone here and to tell you the truth, I find myself wishing I hadn't mentioned this to her. I was really starting to trust her and feel close to her and now (just today) she gives me this news. I'm hoping there's at least ONE person out there who knows what I'm talking about! I don't FEEL insane. I just sometimes can't handle situations and Alice will calmly step up to the plate, tell me, "Take a break, Lorelai," and I don't have to worry. Thanks for any replies. If I've posted this to the wrong board, I apologize in advance.
~Lorelai
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