Posted by Atticus on January 26, 2005, at 10:03:35
In reply to Re: Sorry Atticus, but I don't think you are helping » Atticus, posted by alexandra_k on January 25, 2005, at 21:11:36
I just need some time away. And yes, you did hurt me. If that comment had come from someone I didn't consider such a good friend, it wouldn't have bothered me. And as long as you're engaging in amateur psychoanalyis here, yes, this is also about something else, something bigger. I'm loathe at the thought that everything will just go back to the way it was. Forcing the archiving of the offensive word utterly constituted at least SOME small act of defiance against the fascistic power structure here. It was meant to say to Bob that there are some things we can do here whether you like them or not. But now everything will simply slump back under the rubric of "normal." It's "normal" to be ruled as if by a dictator here. It's "normal" to just put up his caprices. It's "normal" to have him wear us out and for us to give up. Well, fuck that. I do not and will never accept that kind of "normal." I'd like to see him bend and compromise -- genuinely compromise -- on an issue at least one time. But I can't do it all by myself. This anger and frustration is completely destabilizing my behavior IRL -- yesterday I even yelled at my boss -- and I knew, underneath it all, the real cause for my fury at an unjust world lay with this site. So for the nonce, it's time for me to scarper. Everyone brings his or her own agenda to this place. Mine is obviously different from yours. So the only thing for it, as I see it, is for me to go on a 3-4 week non-Babble holiday. Maybe I'll feel more balanced by then. Christ, I hope so. Ta. Atticus is leaving the building
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