Posted by allisonm on April 9, 2005, at 19:48:31
Here's the situation:
Saw my pdoc Tuesday before last. I was really down. I have felt this way for several weeks. He suggested that I consider upping my dose of Zoloft. I am on 300 Wellbutrin XL and 50mg Zoloft, both of which I take in the morning. I have gained 30 pounds since getting off Serzone and starting Zoloft in the fall of 2002.
I don't know whether this weight gain is from taking Zoloft, or from other things. My boyfriend brought it up yesterday afternoon on the drive home from a perfectly wonderful mini-vacation at Saratoga Springs, where we took mineral baths and massages and walked around the quaint town holding hands, and ate really good Indian food.
He's got Asperger's Syndrome, and is not always able to be diplomatic. I got very upset at his suggestion that I was gaining weight on purpose to perhaps try to end the relationship. He wouldn't accept my thoughts that it might be the Zoloft, or the sedentary life I have been leading of late, or the large amounts of red wine I have been consuming to quell this constant anxiety I still feel. I am hurting. He hugged me goodbye as I left his place today, and all I could do was weep. You know how exhausted you feel after an emotional argument? I was a mess last night, and pretty low on energy today, not to mention crabby. My coworkers don't know why nor do they understand.
I am feeling that upping the Zoloft isn't a fix. My life needs to be fixed. Zoloft isn't going to do it. I understand that drugs put the "floor" under one's feet so that one can start working on problems. This Zoloft increase seems like a cop-out to me, yet I don't have any answers to fixing the current life I have. Well, I do, but they feel drastic and I can't see doing them... at least not right now.
I see my pdoc again on Tuesday. Any ideas?
poster:allisonm
thread:482163
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