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Posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 2:16:54
Maybe I shouldn't drink alcohol at all. I drank 1/3 of a 1 litre bottle of Bacardi Breezer Tropical Orange Smoothie.
I'm suddenly sooo angry about the medical student thing again! I have to write my advance directive. I hate not getting complete informed consent from patients. Therefore I need to write an advance directive that says absoluately no medical students or other extraneous people should make any contact with me or even set eyes on me if I am ever in a hosptial or have to undergo some sort of procedure. No, they can't even look at me! Not even and especially without me knowing! I'll seriously rather die than have you observe!
Argh, I'm so angry and want to cry at the same time.
I think I'm jealous. I wish I got to be a medical student. I wish I got to see surgeries and stuff. I'll never get to see any of that. My life is dull. I hate my life. I wish I was an important person.
Ugh. Maybe setting makes a difference. They say you should never try a hallucinagin by yourself. I should try alcohol in a more social environment than just chat.
I wish I could drink with Dr. Bob. I miss him so much. Actually I would love it if I got into shape and could go hiking or cycling with Dr. Bob. That would be heaven. I wish he would visit us. I miss him.
OK, enough crazy almost drunk ranting! LOL OK, I drank about 400 mL of 5% alcohol. Maybe it's not the alcohol at all. Maybe I'm just tired.
Oh, this Tropical Orange Smoothie drink actually tastes pretty good. I usually hate the taste of alcohol. I think anything more than 5% makes it taste bad. I don't like Mike's Hard Lemonade, it's too alcoholically. (Is that a word? LOL) I think that's 7% alcohol.
OK well, that's enough drinking for me. I should go to bed!
OK, I feel better now after writing this. Perhaps I just needed to ride out the anger. Maybe the alcohol brought out some deep seated inhibited disatisfaction with my life.
Really need to go to bed now!
Nite!
Posted by emmanuel98 on July 27, 2011, at 19:34:27
In reply to Argh, I'm so angry and sad at the same time!, posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 2:16:54
I've been reading Complications by Atul Gawande, about his years as a surgical resident. It's true that residents don't have all their skills down, but they are being supervised by attendings and have to learn. We are the guinea pigs. But, OTOH, when an experienced doctor tries a new procedure with which they have limited experience, we are also guinea pigs. Doctors practice on human beings. It's the nature of the beast. I don't worry about it. I love teaching hospitals. I will only go to a teaching hospital.
Posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 20:21:41
In reply to Re: Argh, I'm so angry and sad at the same time!, posted by emmanuel98 on July 27, 2011, at 19:34:27
Why do you only go to teaching hospitals? Aren't they more dangerous?
Posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 22:52:54
In reply to Re: Argh, I'm so angry and sad at the same time! » emmanuel98, posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 20:21:41
I'm lonely in chat. Can someone come in?
Posted by Deneb on July 28, 2011, at 1:20:41
In reply to Re: I'm lonely in chat :-( Someone visit me, posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 22:52:54
I'm not feeling so well. :-(
I've been feeling badly since yesterday and now I can't stop crying.
I don't know what is wrong. Maybe some subconscious stuff got triggered.
I miss pdoc.
I spent all day in chat and no one came. I feel so lonely.
I'm so sad. :-(
What should I do?
Posted by Dinah on July 28, 2011, at 8:44:35
In reply to Re: I'm so sad now, posted by Deneb on July 28, 2011, at 1:20:41
Have you changed your meds recently? Is something going on at home or work? You've seemed to be feeling pretty good lately. Any idea what changed?
Is there any possibility of your getting a therapist, to supplement your pdoc?
http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/distress_tolerance_handouts.html
One thing that helps me is to recognize that I'm feeling these things right now, that it's excessively unpleasant, but that I won't always feel this way. Sometimes I lose sight of that.
Another is obsessively playing games. Do you still play games on Facebook?
You could research something positive, like what trip you would like to go on next.
Can you go walking? I've heard tell that walking is good for dispersing anger.
Posted by sleepygirl2 on July 28, 2011, at 19:35:51
In reply to Re: I'm so sad now, posted by Deneb on July 28, 2011, at 1:20:41
Hey,
I just want you to know that I'm sorry you're feeling badly. :-(
I haven't made it to chat lately. I'm just too busy and tired.
I did see your posts of course, and wondered about some of the things that Dinah has already mentioned.
Take care deneb, see u soon
Posted by emmanuel98 on July 28, 2011, at 22:14:30
In reply to Re: Argh, I'm so angry and sad at the same time! » emmanuel98, posted by Deneb on July 27, 2011, at 20:21:41
> Why do you only go to teaching hospitals? Aren't they more dangerous?
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> No. There's not even evidence that they are less safe in July, when the new residents come on. The attendings at teaching hospitals are so much more experienced and well-trained than the attendings at community hospitals. The two times I've been sent to a community hospital, they had to put me in an abulance and send me to a teaching hospital. Even the senior residents at teaching hospitals have more experience and know-how than the docs at community hospitals. And the junior residents always have an attending available for anything they don't know how to do.
Posted by Deneb on July 29, 2011, at 0:44:57
In reply to Re: I'm so sad now » Deneb, posted by Dinah on July 28, 2011, at 8:44:35
> Have you changed your meds recently? Is something going on at home or work? You've seemed to be feeling pretty good lately. Any idea what changed?
No recent med change. I reduced my Risperdal, but that was several months ago. I guess I forgot to take my meds several times, but that happened in the past and I was OK. Nothing going on at home or work. I have no idea what happened.
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> Is there any possibility of your getting a therapist, to supplement your pdoc?I dunno if I can afford one.
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> http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/html/distress_tolerance_handouts.html
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> One thing that helps me is to recognize that I'm feeling these things right now, that it's excessively unpleasant, but that I won't always feel this way. Sometimes I lose sight of that.
>
> Another is obsessively playing games. Do you still play games on Facebook?Not since Dr. Bob abandoned it.
>
> You could research something positive, like what trip you would like to go on next.Hey, that is a great idea!
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> Can you go walking? I've heard tell that walking is good for dispersing anger.Yeah, that's another good idea. Thanks Dinah
By the way, have you heard from Jane? She hasn't been in chat lately and I am worried about her.
Posted by Deneb on July 29, 2011, at 0:46:05
In reply to Re: I'm so sad now » Deneb, posted by sleepygirl2 on July 28, 2011, at 19:35:51
> Hey,
> I just want you to know that I'm sorry you're feeling badly. :-(
> I haven't made it to chat lately. I'm just too busy and tired.
> I did see your posts of course, and wondered about some of the things that Dinah has already mentioned.
> Take care deneb, see u soonThanks. I hope you get some time to breathe soon.
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