Posted by WhyandHow on October 20, 2008, at 1:29:57
In reply to INTUNIV (guanfacine) ER » WhyandHow, posted by azalea on October 16, 2008, at 20:07:39
I would imagine those drugs you are talking about are not nearly as stimulating as Adderall or Vynase :(
It must be bad that I enjoy Adderall so much and get it illegally, etc. It enhances my sex life so much and much more. Its like I can suddenly enjoy things that others normally do, there is no more depression, no more need for Paxil or smoking pot, etc. But of course with my history of addiction, liking somehtihng like that can be dangerous I would imagine. One person I was honest to about it warned me - he is actually a doctor that I met online for sex!! He is into bondage - LOL. He seems a bit of a freak actually but also a nice guy. He told me I am going to f*ck myself up big time. Well, the thing is, right before this strange nightmare with a weeks worth of benzoid withdrawl form onelittle pill, I had actually and amazingly found a one time source to buy some Vynase with 1 or 2 middle men going to who knows who so I paid an arm and a leg for some. but when I went through that nightmare - tailspin, I just stashed it away for a rainy day knowing that I had to get myself totally off everything for a while before I could even consider taking any. Sure enough this laast Friday was the rainy day. I was back to my normal self o\f pot and paxil and had over eaten big time that night - the ole pot and eating and eating and pot revolving door. Before going to sleep at around 1am, I decided this was the perfect rainy day - even though it was night. Well, I basically havn't slept since! OF course the Vynase last so long and when I was in the middle of persuing fun and sex Saturday night after a long 6 day week or classes and work, I decided to take another pill in the evening. Well, so much for sleeping that night! Now its the third night and I am almost ready to go to bed. Drinking Vodka and OJ (normally don't nowdays), and finally had a wild orgasm after none for a long time (the benzoid chapter etc). It stimulates my sexual fantasies and such like cocaine used to do when I was younger and getting messed up. Well, usually when I realize that the negative effects of something out wiegh the positive I will make myself quit. Well, I can't afford the price I am paying for the ocasional new layer of life anyway - not in the long run. And it helps me loose wieght too! Well, something tells me that if I continued down this road it would not be all peaches and glory by a long shot. Maybe I need to hear from people who have been.
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