Posted by muffled on February 23, 2007, at 0:17:53
In reply to Well into my first withdrawal...how long? » Phillipa, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 19, 2007, at 23:18:17
> apparently we're still aiming to get me off of cymbalta entirely. (freaking scared to tell you the truth)
:(
had a rather psychotic crisis over the last weekend. Just when I thought I was doing SO well, and the worst of the withdrawal was over. BOOM. there we are. all of me, yelling at each other.Did you split? Didn't know that. Sucks :(
> it was awful. pdoc. pdoc pdoc. I feel like I'm being tested here. I'm not sure if I'm a willing lab rat anymore. when will it end? What are we aiming for?scarey thots :( Its gonna be ok though. Lurpy still lurpy under it all. I am still me, even though I not always the same. This body is me.
> now I'm crazy by many accounts. :(Whatever the heck crazy means? Like WTF is normal? Half those seemingly well adjusted people out there are nutty as fruitcakes just like me. S'ok. Nuts are yummy and nutritious. I a walnut, all gnarly and weird!
> was so scared I was gonna have to go to the hospital. :(
Hosp can be fine. Esp when you got advocates like p doc and T who know history. You would be ok there. They just stabilize ya and then give ya the boot.
> What if it happens again?if it happens again, you'll make it thru just like ya did last time, but this time mebbe better cuz now it won't be quite as strange.
> Well, I just better put dark thoughts out of my head, because they like to fester there.
> ))))festering(((((Ya think good thots. LL gonna be OK. Just getting stuff worked out some. Mebbe not gonna be easy, cuz abandonment of care of a mother really f up kids all right. Hard, hard, hard.
But Ll gonna get thru this, and crack outtta her prison and be free mostly! And it'll be a good thing.
She will live, and live richly, cuz she got alotta fun and goodness Aand kindness to offer
Muffled
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