Posted by Benbetter on January 26, 2006, at 18:21:27 [reposted on January 26, 2006, at 20:12:14 | original URL]
Yep, I am new, I am a bad speller and probably not good for some one with delicate ears. I am usually a happy guy no real history of depression. Not me or any of my family. I do like to drink.
Any how that is about as breif as i can make my intro. Last year my girlfriend and I broke up after 13 years... Why isnt important;. What is important is it crushed me. I have never ever felt that low. we are talkin curled up in the corner no lights on and f*ck the world hurt. Well before I decided to end the pain I crawled to the doctor begging for something to get me by... because if you are reading this you know that time was running short.
Well, Doctor help a guy out, said "hey bud, here is your answer. EFFEXOR."
so I started taking it . Trust me. I would have eatin horse sh*t if I knew i could get out of my funk.Guess what... Effexor worked!! It was magic. Sure there were tough days but i could function. sure the first week I felt funny. But I got my life back. I could go to work I could eat and sleep and breath. It was a miracle.
I stayed on it for just about a year. Like every one else when you forgot to take it... It isnt long before you drop every thing and go find it. You cant forget because it wont let you.
Any how I have recently tried being the cowboy and saying screw effexor. I take it and It wont take me.
Right now I am on day six of cold turkey! Holy crap! When I woke up this morning I have not felt this sh*tty since the day I got on it. Sure days 1-5 were rough.. Lots of spins and flu BS. but today More dimensions.... I woke up spinning in circles like I was really sea sick... I used to commercial fish... Sea sickness is only beaten by Effexor. So now with this sea sick feeling I am getting electric shocks? I am not sure this best explains the shocks they are like weird buzzings that come from somewhere never exactly the same spot deep in your skull you move your eyes and the six million dollar man sound happens and your brain is super slowmo. I am sweating like a whore in church and suddenly I feel like crying? No its not cuz I am sad or down it is because I feel so sick and helpless. Afraid of the sun. The sun is better for a vampire than me right now. Did I forget to mention I am a flippin photographer? Working with strobes all day... yep. I am a real smart guy.
So what do I do? I read what ever I can on line. On google I type."quitting Effexor Cold Turkey" I read every damn blog there is. And they all seem to say this exact thing but they are 12 days into it...
Are you Kidding me 12 days? I just told you I am on day 6. I am friggin outta my skull. Trust me I am no stranger to Buzzes... I have tried my share of drugs and booze... This is not the same thing Right now may be the first time I have laughed since I quit.I am laughing at how rediculous this is.
I tried dramamine earlier... It did nothing.
What my next thing is... is I am going up to my bed and putting in austin powers. getting a ton of water.. turning down the lights until my alarm goes off so I can do it all again at work tomarrow.
I am sorry i have no answers, only struggles.. but In some odd way this is making me feel better.
I will keep you utd. whenever i get a chance.
poster:Benbetter
thread:603175
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