Posted by partlycloudy on June 15, 2004, at 10:02:46
In reply to that alcoholism thing (sigh), posted by Caper on June 15, 2004, at 1:35:14
Let's see. This past weekend I snuck a drink when my spouse was taking a nap. How very admirable.
I am trying to make arrangements for me not to be alone when he's out of town (like this week). Tonight I have therapy. Tomorrow I go to the gym (first one I've joined since 1986). Thursday he gets home again - not to plan too far ahead, but I'm hopeful.
I'm realizing that the drinking is part of a life long pattern of feeling ashamed and needing to hide "bad" behaviours like this. I anticipate the disappointment, or worse, disapproval my actions result in, and that makes it worse.
It really hurts to be a human bean.
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