Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 21, 2021, at 19:36:47
In reply to Re: vaccine, posted by rjlockhart37 on August 21, 2021, at 19:21:04
hey, you had said somebody just needs to give you a chance....i guess like believe, or have faith in personal growth. I had a trainer, a personal trainer that was enthusastic, and told me he had faith in me, and .... it started out really good f or about the first 6 months, then after that he started getting tired and irrtatied with me. Not, like really dislike, but i seemed to irritate him in the later months, if i didnt lose weight he got disappointed, and so i lost that faith that someone had in me, and ... i know what this is, i start out good, then i tend to fall behind, maybe have a carefree, sometimes passive work ethic. But i have so much trouble with doing things, i lose things, when i was with my trainer, i forgot my water bottles, started ... i started to not care, about losing weight, and not taking it seriously. Not putting it as a priority, the same thing with school, but ... i didnt blow off school, i litterly could not memorize the commands and linux systems, i could not do it.
So, i think one thing i need to do, is make something a priority. I sometimes give up because it seems i can't do it, and then i kinda just ride the work, and not be driven, more like a floater. This has been this way for a long time, even if ... did support high cause, worked for polical movement or goverment, i would have to make it priority. I've let many things that i wanted for goals, and i lost priority for them because i couldnt do it. Or just got passive. You know in the world, work, people love what they do, they make it priority.
They say don't let a bad day, think you've had a bad life, in other terms, a person who didnt like you because you screwed up with them. I'm sure i can find something or someone that knows my tendecies to fall behind and get passive, but i don't want to do that anymore, i don't want to be carefree person anymore. Anyways, you wrote that in the post and i wanted to elborate on that. Thanks alex for responding :)
"There comes a time in your life where you have to choose to turn the page, write another book, or simply close it"
-Shannon L Alder
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