Posted by lil jimi on September 2, 2016, at 13:47:24
In reply to Re: ghost story, posted by Tabitha on August 20, 2016, at 12:38:48
My Dear Sweet Tab-Tab-Tabrinni! (Hi, there Clear!)
> Oh, man, I'm sorry Jim. I didn't know you were going through that.
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Obviously, I didn't know either. I apologize to you because I forgot how you were there through my whole thing, including Psycho-Rabble! I thank you for that then and for this now.
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> Yes, I can imagine. The more you know, the more you know you forgot.
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Per-xactly
> > And so far it's just to take a measure of my own past experience.
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> Take it slow, and be kind to yourself, past & current.
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Thank you again. Your sweetness eases these traumas considerably. However I see no useful way to speak of my past self without contravening whatever rules of civility that may yet exist. And there's no need to go there.The potential value will be to excavate the artifacts about this transition at PBabble. But I'm going to wait until I have the strength for that.
Know that besides the treatment side-effects, I am feeling much better. More about those side-effects later.
Late June/early July I was diagnosed with oropharyngeal squamous cell carcinoma (HPV-16 positive) stage 4a. August 3 began 3 chemotherapy treatments (Cisplatin) every three weeks, the 2nd of which was August 24, and 5 days a week radiation every 8:00 AM.
Truly, I am at as close to zero risk of fatality as is possible under these circumstances. I mean it. For instance: I do not smoke cigarettes; I do not drink alcohol; I am not over-weight; I do not have diabetes. Furthermore being a HPV-16 carcinoma suggests this respond better to treatment.
But my side-effects are soul crushing. Nausea has me on three meds 24/7. Total loss of sense of taste. No garuantee it will return. Loss of ability to shallow: I can not eat and only barely drink. I live by the PEG tube installed week before treatments. But sometimes the nausea will regurgitate what went into the PEG feeding tube. Sometimes the nausea keeps me up all night. No rest for the weary.
Yet before treatment I was in constant pain and now I take Zero pain meds. I hate opioids.
Our 17 teen year old can never get this cancer. Had him vaccinated 6 years ago
I hate all food commercial. Hardly surprising. They're diabolical.
So my energy can vary a lot and I tend to sleep a lot. I lost 20 lbs and we are doing all we can to keep from losing any more.
"Squamous" means 'scaly'.
Did you know that Peppermint Oil, the vapors, really help nausea? They really do. I carry my little vial with a soaked cotton swab all the time. It can stop you puking like you threw a switch!
But I'm going to get into those Admin archives one of these days,
On a more serious note:
Please, please have every person you know under 27 get vaccinated against HPV!
Their newest vaccine protects against even more varieties of HPV.Take care
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