Posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2014, at 22:19:03
In reply to Re: gratitude, posted by Angela2 on June 23, 2014, at 21:36:24
i'm grateful that i seem to have found a gp working out of a clinic that i feel relatively comfortable with. she let me ramble on (rather a lot) which meant something to me. and coped okay with a bit of agitation... like how i get sometimes. she seems to... understand me, fairly well. so that's pretty good. a little finishing each others sentences... she said the hardest thing might be... pediatrics. all the babies crying because they wanted to be picked up and held. i was surprised. like... oh. i've been thinking about that since... harry harlow's monkeys... i've never held a baby. i don't know how i'd feel.
it might be alright. i bet it is worse later, when you have to deal with kids who obviously don't like their overbearing / invasive mothers. i'd imagine that to be worse. i... i don't know that i'd feel overwhelmed by a clingy baby... because it wouldn't be 24/7...
maybe she meant more... the fact that they were. being confronted with that. like how the monkey pictures... got me for days. how would it be working in the lab. being confronted with it daily. would i habituate? would i want to habituate? i... don't know...
anyway...
her husband is a child and adolescent p-doc. officially. she said. autistic kids... grow up... and adult services aren't trained in... don't know what to do with them.
i'm going to meet with a mental health nurse from there next week. for a chat... some social support. i could do with having a chat to someone. i... don't really chat to people these days. it isn't good for me. i start to forget how.
i don't know if they know about the assault thing... i... uh... i don't know.
court tomorrow. wish me luck.
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