Posted by alexandra_k on January 28, 2014, at 19:39:32
In reply to Re: horrible interview, posted by alexandra_k on January 28, 2014, at 17:59:03
sigh.
i guess the thing is that it is designed for kids who didn't manage to get entry to university.
to give them a shot at university.
to save them from tech etc, perhaps.
to give them the opportunity to take subjects you can't so much take at tech. subjects like chemistry and geography and english etc.
and... they try and encourage / focus into peoples strengths.
whereas... i'm asking for the opportunity to focus on my weakness. which sounds like a luxury thing in comparison. some kids... well... i guess some kids got all the english questions right - but don't have entry to university. because they got high and missed their exam, or whatever. they had a kid, perhaps. who knows.
i guess i just have to hope that they don't actually have 200 candidates like that. that at least some of them are... wishy washy about whether they want to do this program or whether they want to study... radio or something... whether they want to sit on unemployment for a bit... hang out with their friends and play in a band... whether they are likely to actually commute in through the traffic for a couple hours each day... i just have to hope that there are candidates like that... for whom... it is sufficiently unclear whether they will make something of the opportunity were the opportunity to be offered to them.
i feel bad in a way...
and so... the fact that i can't really do anything else probably comes into play a bit. i mean... i can sit at home on disability... though... i'll lose this home if i don't study at uni full time...
the first person i saw was a professor from english. then i got handed over to the program co-ordinator. i think... the people who do the program... i think they might be more special ed / high school people than uni professor people. i mean... i think that professors do take certain classes etc etc but i think the program people more generally... it is more of a special ed kinda thing. because it basically is at high school level.
so the latter is trickier. because they might not understand quite about how i can't function so well outside the university. and because there can be some... insecurity. fear. stuff... inter-personal dynamic potential difficulty... there is this thing about people thinking that i've learned quite enough already (that i've had better educational opportunity than most in studying places that I have). i had a little trouble connecting with the later person... trying to convey how i didn't really have the opportunity to learn math... how primary school was not a place where i got to learn (since i could guess answers that others receiving instruction for still could not seem to get right) -- but these facts don't win me empathy votes. but i hope she got to see enough of me to give me the opportunity for a place. i said i guessed it depended on the other candidates... that i didn't know because i hadn't met them... i think she seemed to like that. i guess we will just have to wait and see, now.
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