Posted by happyflower123 on August 15, 2013, at 22:27:10
In reply to Re: Is Anyone Happy?, posted by Twinleaf on August 15, 2013, at 11:41:37
I haven't been here in a few years I guess. I am going to be graduating this Dec. with a BFA after changing my major from psych to art about two years ago. I plan to take some time off of school, get both of my kids into college, work on my art, and build my portfolio for grad school. I plan to be studying art in Chicago privately during this time. I love painting, photography and printmaking. I fell into art by accident after not ever having an art class in school. I haven't looked back since. It is weird to find something in my 40's that I had no idea I could do well and am so passionate about. But I never had the childhood to explore myself to even know. I put myself into my art, it has been very therapeutic for me, along with creative writing.
I found a therapist experienced in trauma therapy and I have worked hard with her for 3 years. EMDR and art therapy has really worked for me. I have worked hard and went from this "Child Called It" adult/child to learning about myself, learning to be a child who could be safe and work my way through developmentally, emotionally to where I can not let my past own me anymore. Although I can never forget my past, I have separated myself from allowing that not to color my present and future. EMDR helped remove the triggers I didn't even know I was experiencing and reacting to negatively.
I feel bad that I have behaved inappropriately here at times, hurt people, etc. I can see that now but I know sometimes bridges are burned forever and I understand that and take responsibility.
Well anyway, I decided to stop by and say hi. Maybe those new here, who don't know how horrible I behaved as a person , can know that with a good therapist, even the worst of trauma can be processed with a safe T. One that keeps boundaries. It didn't help that my first T was unethical, that just compounded the trauma I already had and add But like can get better, healing is possible.
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