Posted by rjlockhart37 on June 20, 2013, at 0:31:42
writing this right now before i go to bed, i've had a bad day....everything is just sh*tty....feel like junk, my health is junk, and my prayers to God are junk....never to be heard expet to the wind and pass away....its like i wake in my dreams and hoping its not reality, but maybe being too dramatic, but seriously this condition about the medicine not working, its strong medicaton and my body continues to resist it...causing more problems....and you know all day i thought about no one understands, no one cares, and even if they do....i have to handle this myself....i would love to give my dish of problems to someone, and have the relief that it would all taken care of....no, and now im staring at a platter of gross food i don't know what to do with.....the easiest way to think is to get rid of it....but i can't throw away my problems because that would create more, its a difficult time....posted here over the years....and i've had similar posts of being miserable.....so this is nothing new.....just the fact that i want to get rid of this discuting plate that makes me want to vomit, which is my problems that seem unsolvable...both health and psycholgical.....
anyways, the only good thing to know is something Joyce Meyer said.....when nothing is good, use a testimony and say "i'm still here" ... yes i am still here....no suicide, or death, and don't plan on it happening for another 40years....
.nothing but gloom rihgt now.....but seasons change, and certain things will pass....and not plant corrupted, dark seeds in the mind.....positive, life, hope, and goodness of jesus christ....
thank you for reading...
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false lights of enlightment and belief systems
poster:rjlockhart37
thread:1045568
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