Posted by sleepygirl2 on June 22, 2011, at 21:31:48
In reply to sleepygirl,, posted by floatingbridge on June 22, 2011, at 12:30:02
> Are you really Dr. Bob? Or maybe Obi Wan Kanobe. (May I state my preference for the second? )
geez no, obi wan would be nice though.
hmmm...maybe chewbacca?whose identity would I like to assume?? lemme think....
I already was buffy the vampire slayer.
I can't think of anyone else just now.
> Your ability to motivate me is impressive, as is your intergalactic internet booty-kicking power.I'm actually quite tame.
>
> Whoever you, you are far more clever and powerful than I had ever imagined.amazing right??! ;-)
> But don't worry. Your secret is safe with
> me. And please believe trust I have been working the phone on behalf of my mental health this morning. So don't zap me through my phone
:-)excellent :-)
>
> (Btw, how are things?)I wrote a little up above. I am working myself to the point of exhaustion. I am so anxious most of the time that I don't know how it is that I manage to step out my front door. That's not so new, but I don't have nearly the resolve that I used to. I feel a bit "disabled". I suppose I manage some sort of front, though I imagine on some days it's not very convincing. Maybe everyone manages a front though? but I hope that most people don't have to.
I keep fantasizing about doing some type of work, alone, with paper of some sort. (don't ask me what, that's the extent of the thought, but it helps a bit)My sister is coming to my therapy appointment tomorrow. I need to talk to her about stuff.
I don't know if I'll tell her about my semi-suicide attempt. I don't want to upset her. I went to the cardiac unit for a couple of days after it, but I don't know what constitutes "serious", but I know what constitutes "stupid".
I didn't really mean to do anything. My judgment kinda sucked, and it's not something I'd ever like to do again.I sort of feel like I am just an angst filled, pessimistic person, and that nothing will change that. I'd like to believe that meds will make it better. They help anyway. Regardless of that question I couldn't cope very well with getting off them at this point.
eh, there's more, but that's enough
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