Posted by Christ_empowered on May 6, 2011, at 20:44:11
So, I was in a van the other day and I thought I heard the people behind me talking about me. Never mind that I'm on medication, never mind that I'm in therapy--I still heard voices.
But the voices I heard--the content--would be totally unreasonable for the people behind me to be saying. They didn't know me, and it was a church van on the way to a revival. I kind of doubt they'd be that mean-spirited.
The content was similar to stuff people used to say about me in the small town I grew up in and returned to. For several years, I went from being decidedly unpopular to being THE outcast. I was treated like dirt, even in public places (God bless small town, Southern US).
So, I'm glad for the medication and the therapy. Combined, they've given me more rationality, more equanimity, more "space" between me and the psychosis (or..whatever that is).
Anyway, I hate to sound all traumatized, but can you have PTSD from being an outcast? From being talked about and ridiculed and rejected? Or is it my propensity towards psychosis mixed with unfortunate experiences? Both?
Thanks.
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