Posted by Dinah on April 29, 2011, at 18:01:11
In reply to Re: is pleasant/but odd » Dinah, posted by floatingbridge on April 29, 2011, at 10:41:47
No, no. Nothing that bad. It's just that after the anaesthesiologist said I was good to go, she did something and I felt it. She was skeptical, I think, so traced something on my skin, and asked where it was. I was able to tell her. At which point she fussed at the anaesthesiologist. Before she actually cut, I was numb. Thank heavens.
The shaking was purely physiological I think. I've heard it can be a side effect. As soon as my son was safely out, they put me totally under. None of those beautiful post Caesarian bonding moments. It was just as well, I think, as I was vibrating too hard to bond.
I wasn't really traumatized by it. I remember all of it, but not in a really upset sort of way. I remember being traumatized more by waking up in the dark afterward with no one nearby, speaking with no response, and thinking (with all that lovely post birth hormonal insanity) that now I was no longer carrying a baby, I wasn't important enough for anyone to bother with. (The nurse showed up a few minutes later. Seemed like eons at the time, but I'm sure it wasn't really.)
The baby blues hit, then postpartum depression. Now that was miserable.
But I can see where it could be traumatizing, depending on how the anaesthetic affected you. If you were aware but unable really to interact with others, it could take on a nightmarish cast. Especially if it somehow reminded you of another experience.
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