Posted by europerep on August 30, 2010, at 4:21:56
In reply to Re: Suicide Note ... would you leave one? » simcha, posted by Maxime on August 30, 2010, at 0:41:24
> It's really weird. I always have two sets of parallel thoughts. The one that wants to feel normal and the suicidal one. I don't know how to reconcile the two. For instance, despite being very suicidal, I want to see the Emmy's tonight. WTF? So when I see my pdoc tomorrow I will probably tell him that I wanted to kill myself last night, but I wanted to see the Emmy Awards. Is that even rational?
>hello maxime,
I haven't posted in any of your threads so far, but I've been reading everything you said the past weeks.. I am short of time right now, I'm just having breakfast and then I'll have to leave for a university exam, but I just wanted to tell you the extract I quoted above is quite funny, and it made me laugh, and this is something that happens truly seldom lately.. I love this kind of "twisted" thinking! (I hope you don't mind me saying 'twisted').. don't think that I find your misery funny, I am truly touched by what you write and wrote, but even though you are so miserable, you can still poke fun at yourself.. this is a very rare quality, at least in my experience, but I find it shows that there is a very intelligent and funny person 'underneath the veil'.. please give this person another try to come out. have you considered participating in a clinical trial? or asking your pdoc for ketamine? I know I am a little obsessed with this ketamine thing now that the article in 'Science' came out, but maybe ketamine maintenance could be something for you.. I will wrote more later, ok? I hope today will bring an answer to at least some of the questions that are on your mind right now..
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