Posted by conundrum on February 5, 2010, at 12:36:41
In reply to Obsessed with my meds, posted by inanimate peanut on December 24, 2009, at 18:32:56
> Is anyone else obsessed with their meds?
Yes! I am starting to realize I am obsessing. Unfortunately I don't enjoy anything and can't get distracted.
>I swear it's all I think about 24/7.
I think about it a lot when I have nothing else on my mind. I"ve noticed if i am reading a book or something I am not thinking about it, but if i am unoccuppied I think about it. Right now I'm wondering if the ginkgo I"m taking could have a negative effect on my drug response.>I was on Parnate 60mg and was pinning every shred of hope I had in this life to increasing the Parnate and adding Nortriptyline. My doc said no to both of those yesterday and it killed me. I've been trying to find Parnate online to buy to increase it myself with little luck. I think I may have found a way to do it myself anyway. I can also buy the nortriptyline online and do that myself to. But, that is not the point.
I've been considering buying Remeron online since my docs won't prescribe it and they want me to try an SNRI but I'm scared of the side effects and withdrawals if it doesn't work.
>It's almost like I think if I keep looking at the message boards that I have some control over whether the meds will work, although I know at a logical level that's not true.Thats what the pdoc I saw said to me and said I was obsessive and that was my real disorder. But for me I actually do believe this, even though it may not be true. So far the best response i've had since trying meds again was a concoction I came up with on my own with the help of someone on this board.
That being said, I still think its not good to spend a lot of time reading about the drugs. It takes a lot of energy and is quite disappointing when nothing works after a lot of research. I just wish I had something to distract me.
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