Posted by no_rose_garden on May 3, 2009, at 13:53:11
Last week I didn't say anything in a class where participation is 1/3 of our grade. The teacher made a comment about it....but I just can't "butt in." I don't want to interrupt and it always feels like what I have to say is wrong is not as important or I don't deserve to talk. I just can't.
The DREAM: I was in a class and us students were in pairs. The teacher announced that our grade was determined by our participation. I hated that and knew I couldn't do it. I told my partner to throw a jar of Vick's vaporub at the teacher b/c I was so mad at him for saying that. The teacher heard and confiscated the jar.
I was really looking forward to going to his office though b/c then I could tell him how hard it was for me and reach out to him. It's so hard.
Then I woke up.....It felt so real. I really wanted to reach out to somebody and tell them how hard it is...not just talking in class...but everything. I have T, but I guess I need him more right now. I listened to all the messages he's left me (10) and called to listen to his voice mail message. I don't know how to get what I need. :( It was really hard to get out of bed.
I wish I knew what I needed and how to get it.
poster:no_rose_garden
thread:894055
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20090421/msgs/894055.html