Posted by WaterSapphire on October 17, 2008, at 0:03:11
I am drained. Not feeling well, and drained. But, I am here. It is something to look forward to, each and every day that I conquer another day on this planet called earth. I look at myself as a wizened old conqueror at the ripe old age of 32.
More like 92... lol...
Day by day I am trying to figure out how to make things like food stretch out around this house, how to afford my pets, gas, put medical stuff on hold, and somehow manage to take care of things I have a lot of trouble doing. I have to rest a lot. I also have been losing my patience a lot for everything because most of this falls upon my shoulders. I never knew my shoulders could take so much, all alone. I wish I had my Papa (great grandpa)around to talk to , and give a big hug too, or my great grandma. I have no idea why I am writing this here, or why I am writing this at all. I am a mere shell at the moment, tired of what I have finished, and tired of what lays ahead. I hope to gosh that my computer doesn't break down, because this is my only connection to the outside world as I know it really since I am somewhat of a hermit. Well all, I hope you are all conquering each day as well, and that many of you are even doing better than just that...that you are actually living each day to the fullest.
Right now, survival mode is what I wake up to. Same lullaby that will sing me to sleep when I go get some rest...
Peacefully
Chelle
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