Posted by obsidian on March 19, 2008, at 18:24:17
In reply to Re: feeling lousy....just ranting- don't read » obsidian, posted by Dinah on March 19, 2008, at 11:24:44
I will find a way, I am just tired and sad. Mostly though, what I am is anxious. My preferred method of coping though, avoidance, has its own pitfalls.
I have been a firm believer of feeling the fear, but doing it anyway, but lately I want to go with the path of least resistance.
It seems that it is truly unimportant what I would "like" to do or what "feels good", because those things don't exist. I have been operating under the false impression that I would find those things if I could get past the breakers. It would seem however that there is only obligation and responsibility while trying to survive each immediate challenge. I think I have tried to do more than I am able to do. I think I learned too early what it is to be miserable, to grit your teeth and bear it, that I missed the point.
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