Posted by Michael83 on March 3, 2008, at 2:49:03
I believe in God. And I try to make Jesus a part of my life.
But the details are so confusing. I can think of a thousand reasons why it makes no sense.
I'm so scared, all the time.
God doesn't expect me to figure this out, does He? He doesn't want me to be unhappy and torturing myself? It's not my fault I cannot make sense of this and it's only human to gravitate towards things that make you happy.
I only am happy when I trust my own opinions. Which I did, for about one hour today while driving, it was a relief. But when I got back home, I felt depressed again. I feel like I cannot trust my opinion because it's impossible to know for sure the nature of God, so there's always that "what if?" "what if?"
=( =(
Sorry for the rant. I need to fix my sleep patterns.
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