Posted by karen_kay on November 29, 2007, at 13:58:21
dissatisfaction? did i jsut make that up? well, i'm calling the people that make the dictionary and telling them to add it and give me my share of the royalties (and if it wasn't for my meds, i'd be able to tell you who makes dictionaries too! blasted meds! god, i wish i wasn't crazy! and while i'm wishing, i wish i wasn't here right now. and i wish i had one of those cool things william shatner had when he'd say 'beam me up scotty' then disappear to wherever the hell he went. i know, i wish a whole lot, but give me a break, i'm f*ck*ng nutzo!)
i'm missing people here. lots of them. and i know it's silly.
i'm becoming a hermit. i hate it. i can't help it. today, i did my hair. tried to tease it to oblivion. listened to ryan adams. made me miss people like crazy. really wanted to run away, like a child. i relly do feel like a child. did the dishes. yeah, i'm betty f*ck*ng crocker now. moved on to make-up. i think it's the plaid pants i'm wearing that's causing the madness to set in??
moved on to the curling iron. still listened to mister ryan adams. still missed people. still wanted to run away. still feeling guilty for never being satisfied. (is this the right board? this is social, even if i'm a hermit, damn it!!!)
so, i've got curled hair, plaid pants (that match EVERYTHING!!!), a runny nose, the best make-up ever and still this feeling of lonlieness that won't leave me.
so, back to missing people and this rant i'm on. i'm not happy. <pause> i take that back. i'm happy, i guess. i'm just not satisfied. i didn't sign up for this life.
somebody slap me. somebody tell me 'be happy with what you've got kiddo. that's life. if you don't like somethign then get off your *ss and do something about it, kiddo.'
somebody? hello?
and about missing people... anybody out there? 'come pick me up, take me out'. wait, that's a song i heard. i have to learn to seperate music from reality sometimes.
back to the kitchen to play betty crocker AGAIN! gosh, i hope she was hot when she was young....
poster:karen_kay
thread:797620
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20071026/msgs/797620.html