Posted by karen_kay on April 9, 2007, at 10:17:57
In reply to wkdfnasdndln, posted by Klavot on April 1, 2007, at 14:33:49
ok, what i meant to write is that i'm working on working up the effort for a reply, not exactly working on a reply per se. no, i'm not carrying around a note pad to the bathroom with me, jotting down notes. no, i'm not jotting down notes in between dinner (or in the middle of), while applying mapeup, in the middle of a sitcom, or any of that nonsense. i just meant i'm getting around to it, because i think your post is an important one to get to (see how already it's been about 98% about me? i wasn't lying, was i?)
now, growing up, my father had a talk with me. it began like this, 'kk, are you gay?' (i never dated. never went to prom. went to dances sometimes, but mostly only if i could steal booze from the local liquor or grocery store first and then went with my girlfriend (no, not that kind of girlfriend) who was out of school years ago, only to be kicked out and finish up the beer in the parking lot.) i asked 'why?' dad said 'because you never date. guys never call for you (actually sometimes i called them, but only after my parents were asleep. right, like i'd let my mother even speak to anyone even remotely interested in me. fact was, i highly doubted he was remotely interested in me anyway, but i feared my mother ruining any chance of that anyway). i decided to keep this conversation going with my mother anyway (as apparently my parents had decided i was gay and i think they liked me better that way anyway.
mom sat down to dinner. i told her 'look, i have somethign to tell you, i'm in love with my best friend petty (a girl). i think i'm gay.' to which mother replied 'about time you figured it out, we knew this whole time.'
oh well.... i'm married (happily) with a child (see top of page (that's my duckie (though i must say, mister bob should change that pic, i'd be happy to send in a new one, he does ahve teeth now).
i'm getting old now (geez, almost 30!!!!). i hardley have a circle of friends anymore (petty's still in that circle and we have yet to make out (she's over here now though, perhaps before i take her home today? maybe we'll embrace the holy trinity? wowsa, i hope references to sitcoms that were canceled before their time aren't considered uncivil!)i can understand my parents not understanding me. i can't understand your friends not understanding you. just how close are you to these friends? what are the chances of making new ones? how much of a hermit are you willing to become? i mean, do you have a problem opening up to these people, your quasi-friends? because it seems they don't know you. you could choose to make them yoru friends (like on that annoying tv show) where you know who they're sleeping with and they know, but then that means thye'll be calling you for bail money or for fund raising events, depending on the type of people they are.
are you sure you're ready for that? i'm so anxious right now, i'd be willign to trade places with you right now and be that 'hermit who everyone thinks is gay'
did that even help any? could you just lie to me and say yes, so i feel a little bit better, becaue everyone knows, this is all about me!!!!
poster:karen_kay
thread:746024
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20070408/msgs/748393.html