Posted by Daisym on March 18, 2007, at 0:34:36
I think I miss it, even if it terrifies me. I'm not talking about "just" sex, it is more than that. Since I've been separated, there is no one to hold me, and no one to wrap myself around when I feel bad. As bad as things were between my husband and myself, I think being held every now and then had value.My son gives great hugs. But it isn't enough. Or maybe I just don't really know what I need. It could be an overall need to be taken care of and being held symbolizes that.
The thing is, I HATE to be touched. I'm one of those awkward huggers, I usually stick my hand out to avoid someone grabbing me. How do people get good at that? Or more comfortable?
This feels like one of those oxy morons - I miss being held but don't touch me.
*sigh*
poster:Daisym
thread:741908
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