Posted by karen_kay on February 6, 2007, at 5:29:08
In reply to Re: so i'm manic but.... » karen_kay, posted by Bobby on February 5, 2007, at 23:59:23
how'd i forget...
i saw my 'therapist'. the mandatory one, i had to see so i could see a pdoc the first time, when i was depressed. first thing she said? 'so, how do you feel about inpatient?'
WHAT????? how would she feel about that. i couldn't spit the words out fast enough.
its jsut so strange how it's changed this time. before, i was mean, but only whne i drank. i haven't drank (ok, a few drinks during the game but come on, i deserve that one!!! go colts!!!!). last time, i'd go out for a pack of smokes at 2 am at end up 2-3 hours away. this time, i'm very near to hitting my husband (not even close to spanking children's butts, promise! if that was the case, i'd be glad to go to the royal hospitialitities of the hospital.
so, i'm mean, then confused, then drooling (thanks topamax!), then crying, then cleaning (hey, my bedroom is so very organized! i can't get over that). that's how i'm keeping everyone except mr kk safe, cleaning. i was ---- that close to getting a tattoo, but i wasn't going to pay their minimum and the guy looked liek he couldn't tatoo mom on my mom.
parts are kinda fun. calling my sister to tell her happy birthday, then less than 24 hours later caling to tell her to f- off and never call me again wasn't. talking WAY too loud isn't. my new look is. getting new clothes is. spending too much $$$ isn't. talking ALL THE TIME isn't. not being able to slow down isn't. all this on top of getting ahold of some valium. thank god for small favor.
and thank r j reynolds for camel wides! ouch, my lungs are really going to hate me when i come out of this mess.
and don't tell me to calm down, i would if i could!!! why do therapists, dr's ect, say stupid stuff like that anyway? don't they get training on sensitive things to say???
oh, i mentioned something aobut dreams of going to florida and my therapist acted concerned. she jsut doesn't have a sense of humor. hello, i live in indiana! of course i'd rather be in florida. it's 10 degrees here! hello dumbbutt!
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