Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on January 23, 2007, at 21:12:52
In reply to Re: Please tell me my life isn't ruined *triggers* » Deneb, posted by TexasChic on January 23, 2007, at 19:43:59
Hey Deneb,
One of my relatives (close relatives) is a very smart guy and he went off to college and got a little too involved in difficult courses, and his fraternity (social) life. The two did not mix well, and he got kicked out of school.Came back to live with mom and dad (having graduated with SAT = 1600 2 years before) and was not even admitted to the State Uni that had given him 75% scholarship 2 years before.
Ouch
He took community college courses over the summer and the next fall (2 terms) and got his GPA up to a level where the state Uni would accept him. He changed his major to something that came more naturally to him and graduated with honors only 1 year late.
I urge you not to give up on your dream of graduating with a Uni degree. You are clearly capable of it, but your life is a little chaotic right now for you to pull yourself together and give your studies your best effort.
Me and my T have been talking recently about creating "compartments" for the different things that I do in my life. I have a "compartment" for taking care of accounting and business matters (monday afternoons). I have a "compartment" for doing my dissertation research (two hours a day, M-F, and ideally 9-5 (or 10-4) presence in the office to deal with school stuff, like attending lectures and lab meetings. I have a "compartment" for quality time with my husband (currently limited to our evening phone calls and 2x monthly visits boohoo). And a "compartment" for dealing with my family (therapy for the heavy stuff) and I call my folks 1 or 2x a month.
I'm starting to learn that I don't have to operate under conditions of chronic anxiety and distress. I'm starting to learn that if I let different aspects of my life contaminate other aspects, I end up as a multi-tasking stressed out bitch, or worse- hiding from the world with dreams of ending my life.
So, yes-- there are other ways to live your life. You can do pretty much whatever you want. You can even work at the shoe museum selling postcards to tourists with Mandarin surnames, for instance... Or learning to count cards in blackjack and join a ring of professional covert gamblers.
Deneb, the world is your oyster (go out and catch some). Think of the opportunities you have, and not of the bridges you mistakenly believe that you have burned. You've actually got a lot of talents and skills that you don't appreciate right now, because your life is too contaminated by failure (as defined by Deneb's skewed view of the world). You are ANYTHING but a failure. You are a smart, talented, resourceful, youthful, and kind person.
Personally, I think you'd make a great travel-writer for the youth-hostel set. I thought your accounts of the trip to Toronto were very evocative and entertaining (that was, like, the 2nd or 3rd week I was on babble, and I thought it must be an AWESOME place if someone cool like Deneb was writing about her solo trip to the big city to meet the man himself!)
-Ll
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