Posted by Clockwork Ange on January 22, 2007, at 17:36:38
In reply to Will Never Get Better, posted by Phillipa on January 22, 2007, at 12:26:52
> How can I ever get better? When there is no money coming in and it's all my fault as I can't be alone. And that means my husband is here. I suggested an internet job since painting boats outside now is impossible. I have to give him my savings to pay bills with then what. I wake up to this thought each morning. So How do I manage to be alone? I've been with him for four years now daily. I don't even have the dogs won't go out without him they hate me. I need something to make me unafraid and then where does he think he's going to work the guilt is consuming me can anyone help. Well of course not it's up to me. But thanks anyway. Love Phillipa thanks for letting me rant. Bob will you pay me to work on the site? I know nothing about computers.
Oh honey big hugs to you (((((Ph)))))
I know it sounds cliche, but it's about focusing on one day at a time- sometimes even one hour at a time.. and take pride in the small steps you take- they prepare you for the bigger steps.
Do you think you could imagine being alone... and explaining the process of becoming afraid to us? For example, something like- "When I sit, and realize I'm alone, I can hear everything in the house- the clock ticking... and that's when I start thinking about...."
Sometimes walking others through your process can help you pick things apart and can also benefit those trying to help you best- so we know your thought process....
We are here for you!
poster:Clockwork Ange
thread:725199
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20070122/msgs/725331.html