Posted by wishingstar on January 20, 2007, at 21:05:58
I just feel the need to act "young" for a minute and whine. I dont expect any of you to do anything about it... I dont know why I'm doing this really. In fact, you dont even need to read the whole thing. Summary: I'm sick and I feel bad. That's about it.
...commence whining...
I feel crappy. I have shingles. And it SUCKS.
It started last tues night and the itching has been absolutely incredible lol. It itches so bad sometimes I cant think of anything else. And the creams dont seem to help much.
The thing is, I havent really had the pain that is so typical of shingles. The first doctor I saw on Wed thought it was a fungal infection so up until today, I was using a cream too, in case it was that. I found out through experimentation the cream was making it worse. The second doctor said it was shingles so I'm on antivirals for that.
The rash is starting to lessen a bit, I can tell. The itching has gotten a little better since I stopped the anti fungal crap. But then, you know what? Well, shingles usually comes sort of in rings, it follows your nerves.. and tonight, I've been very sensitive and hurting a little on my side, a few inches from the other rash. Often people get pain for a day or 2 before a rash develops.
I dont want any more to show up!! And if it does, I bet it's going to hurt this time. I guess I'd rather be in pain than itch... but it's just not fair (whine whine). I'm young, in good shape, healthy overall.. this shouldnt be happening. None of the risk factors except I guess stress.
I'm just so frustrated that I want to cry. I feel like just throwing myself to the floor and crying and kicking and who knows what - temper tanrum style. I wont of course. But I just want it to go away. I want someone to take care of me and care that I'm feeling crappy.
It comes down to this I think: I try SO hard at everything and things STILL go so wrong. Hah, I know - disease has nothing to do with how hard you try. I know.
I'm supposed to see Ginny Tues and with the one rash, I'm just fine to go. But if another develops, it'll still be in the nasty phase and I wont be able to. I need her. Being sick and frustrated intensifies the aloneness.
I'm trying to take really good care of myself. Wear comfy clothes, do things I enjoy, all that.
Thanks for listening. Sorry to do that. I just had to get it out.
/end whining
poster:wishingstar
thread:724620
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