Posted by snapper on October 29, 2006, at 1:59:40
........ for a day when I can feel Love and not cry and not cry at the wrong commercials. I do at times pray for all of us who suffer these mental tragedies. Life is meant to be so much more! I listen to music that touched me and moved me when I was'nt always in this quagmire and fog !!! It makes me happy yet sadly SAD. I am sure that many of my P babble friends hope and wish for those days as well. When the consatant ruminations are not always attached to a seemingly bad or good memory that somehow depression taints and clouds. My Anhedonia is bad enough most of the time that I do not care to even post. I know many of you can relate. It is as though why? who cares? why bother? It is not worth putting out there in to the cyber-world ---- wanting to post thier heart felt responce to a post or to even muster up the energy to hit the keys on the keyboard. We all in some way or another keep all of us going and "hoping" ... No I am not on a happy7 feel good posting tangent! I am having a few drinks and that may loosen my mind and my lips to write the things that I REALLY think and feel.I can also say that this is not about substance abuse ... meds or what is right wrong or what... ever category this should or should not go into. It is rare for me to have the mental fortitude and energy to write what ever, may come to my mind- simply do NOT CARE 95 % or more of the time. Tonight however I hope that I can contribute a few words of hope and Love and encouragement who have felt like giving up or giving in to this Mental beast of a fiasco(sp) ? Tonight I hope to exude a little hope to those who do not have it in them to hope an ounce further. I am NOT well and most if not all of YOU may be in the same place. I just thought instead of the doom and gloom I would right some positive things. I hope I do not offend anyone or come across in a pius ...I am well attitude ... I just hope my present "Brain State can and will give someone a hope and reason to hold on and a yearning and a prayer...( no matter your beliefs). To not give up. I hope than this touches someone and anyone to keep going when they feel like throwing in the towel. I am not just ...I suffer to the max. As you all may do as well. Tonight , I hope to give hope and a few words of inspiration and knowledge of knowing that NONE OF US is alone! We all have each other and I hope we can know that in the worst of times. To all of us! Lets keep on fighting the fight. Good or bad!
My Best-
Snapper
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